"All the hardest, coldest people you meet,
- Iain S. Thomas (via poetisch)
were once as soft as water.
And that’s the tragedy of living."
Why is it seems to be I’m always the wrong one? The things that I think are correct and appropriate turns out to be always and always the wrong one. Is it just me or the way I’m thinking of everything that seems correct are actually wrong? I’m the type of person who believes in everything that is said to me. Even if it’s a bad thing, if it’s true about me, I’ll accept it and will try to change for the better. But only, I will change if I think it’s really that bad. Is that a bad thing to do? I’m so stupid with these. I’m trying my best here. I’m even thinking of what are the words that I could say that could make you believe that I’m regretting whatever I did. But why do it seems, that everything seems to be wasted? I know I’m wrong. I accept it, but please. Ugh, I don’t know anymore but please keep it up with me. Sometimes I like you to be frank with me so somehow I can know what my wrongs are. But then, I can’t be the same as well. I can’t be frank with you because I’ve never been frank for myself as well. Unfair aren’t I? It’s life, but maybe I could change it the other way if things will be settled. I’ve thought of asking help, but what they can do is only give advice. Way too common advice but still, I asked them and try to sync it into my mind. Words, really. One simple mistake, can make everything really fails. There is really no room for mistakes. All must have to be done in a right way. But then, there is no perfection isn’t it? So maybe accept my stupid self for what I am? I’m so stupid that I don’t know how to fix a thing that I’m involved with. I’m the one (maybe) who broke it and here I am, stupid enough to just make everything worst. Worst and will end up blaming myself for what? For a thing that I think was right.
//ugh what is this. //throws away thoughts.